Itching to Write

Over the past few weeks I’ve been itching to put my thoughts down into words. It has been a notable time since I last wrote a blog but that has not been because I haven’t thought about it.

This past week I was hit with a massive cold. It really wasn’t much more than an head cold but boy did it zap all of my energy. ¬†I had a few revelations during the last week that I would love to share with you here:

1. Health is so important

This is not new, but every time I get sick, this is the first thought that crosses my mind. I am so grateful to be healthy. Every time I get sick I vow to wash my hands more frequently and take better care of myself. Here is to another go at that constant battle.

2. I am addicted to my phone

This too is not a new revelation. But it really hit me, when I was sick and needed to just rest aka nap, I was scrolling throw Twitter, Facebook, Instagram or LinkedIn. Not really to serve any particular purpose. I really felt so disconnected from the world even though I’m so “connected”. That was the first time I felt that. It was really such a weird feeling.

This morning, I woke up with the thought of taking a break from social media and email on Sunday. Now, obviously today is a Sunday and I did not fulfill idea but it is something I think I am going to experiment with. Obviously being in PR, I need to be able to check work emails because crisis management might be needed, but I am going to take a more concerted effort moving forward to not spend aimless minutes, probably more realistically hours) scrolling through social media. Check in with me (during the week) to see how this going, starting next week! ūüôā

3. Take care of yourself

Now, I am not one to not take care of myself. I sleep when I need to sleep. I know I cannot function optimally when I have not slept, and have never sacrificed this even as an undergraduate. Last week I went to a workshop at the Beyond Pink Conference, and it so obvious that I am an exception to this rule. It stuns me how many young women do not make this a priority in their lives. I’d also like to note that I am NOT at my optimal in this regard. I really need to focus on my nutrition and my fitness, more consistently. This was particularly evident to me as I laid sick on my couch for the majority of the week.

Regram from Tightclub

Regram from Tightclub

Now that I am feeling better, though not a 100% yet, I am excited to refocus on these points. It is always good to recharge your health and personal development.

Have a great start to your week.

Experimenting

My has it been a busy summer! I graduated this June, started and completed a public relations certificate, made one tiny step of progress for my mom’s estate albeit, unsuccessfully, and am currently embarking on my first job hunt post university. All very exciting and each a mini to full fledged milestones in my life.

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On the topic of new and exciting, I’ve been experimenting with a few different areas in my life. Here is a quick glimpse into each:

1. Gluten free eating
Over the past 6 months my celiac levels have been elevated. They hit around the 60 mark, diagnosis celiacs are around 100 and non celiacs are typically around 10. So I am somewhere in the middle with this marker. About 2.5 weeks back I was utterly fee up with how tired I was feeling all the time. I decided to do a little experiment to see if gluten was plaint a role.

So far, no dice. I’m still equally as tired as I have been. I have an appointment with a gastroenterologist at the end of the month, so I think I will test this out till then. If anything changes, you will definitely get an update.

2. Insulin Pump
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As a part of my mission to take charge of my health, and thanks to BC government’s decision to change the eligibility age, I was able to get an insulin pump! An insulin pump is a page size device that continuously pumps insulin into my body 24 hours a day. It is much more convenient than having to inject manually like I’ve done for the past 20 odd years. So far, I have been running with my blood sugars a little high. This is also about week three with my pump.

My endocrinologist and my pump nurse have been in near daily contact with me to monitor and adjust my insulin levels. I’m told they like to play it very safe and have me run a little high, rather that low as my body gets use to the continuous insulin. I’ll update you with an significant progress in this department.

3. Gratitude
Because I’ve been in this state of uncertainty about where I want to head with my life for over a year, I decided to add something new. I’m normally a very mindful person, but I’m not sure everyone else knows that. I’ve made an effort to acknowledge people I am grateful for. I hope it is a nice treat when people hear something out of the blue. If you don’t change how can you expect things to change, right?

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Well those are three areas I’m focusing on my life. This is the first post in another new thing I’m trying, transit blogging. Why not use the time to get my thoughts out into the universe of the interweb?

Happy Wednesday!

Self Realizations

The last week has posed several different challenges that have led to different self realizations that I am going to summarize.

Firstly, I am honest. A little direct and speak my mind clearly. It was pointed out to me that I perhaps need to filter a bit more last week. This is a drastic difference from where I was even just last year. I was far more timid and kept things very much to myself. I am now a bit more outspoken and will let you know how I am feeling. So, now I am working on a happy medium. Honesty will still be one of my most important values, but I will work more consciously to be aware of how that may be interpreted by other people.

ImageA second lesson I learned last week, is that I really value respect and communication. There was a complete disregard for respect in a project I was involved in and I was really unsure how to proceed. My communication was not the strongest in parts of this instance. But I was completing my job in this project very well, actively engaging when opportunities were presented. I was actively sharing content under organization restraints. But it came to a point where the complete disregard for respect pushed me over my edge. I walked away and I am proud of myself for this. I was not at all impressed with this situation but I am glad I walked away. Freeing up more of my time for other projects. 

This brings up another issue. It is really important to be aware of how other people are interpreting how you present yourself. This is where strong communication skills are key. This question often comes up in interviews about how you deal with stressful situations. I always fall back on strong communication skills. The importance of this has been even more prevalent in the last week. I am consciously working on communicating better. Yes, I am honest, but I need to focus more on communicating what is going on with the people I am working with. 

This is has led itself to some new goals this week:

1. Filtered honesty
2. Better communication
3. Confidence 

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Wish me luck in the flow of self discovery!

 

Until next time…

Shadows of Doubt

Last Wednesday was rough. I left my keys in my backpack, which I gave to my boyfriend’s sister, while I attended an event. I was locked outside for what probably was like 30 minutes. Stranded, with loads of homework to do, after an exhausting week of learning. Really not that bad looking back, but boy did I feel terrible that night.

I’ve noticed over the last few days that I’ve had shadows of doubt cast over me. I was feeling very confident last week that I had figured out a clue to my career path. But this week has been cast in a definite looming cloud.

Does this feather in the wind feeling ever go away? I’d love some solid clarity and maybe just a smidge of stability in my life.

Toughen up, kid. Right?

I am feeling super insecure and it’s scary. One of my goals this year was to really focus on my confidence. I am really struggling right now with this and I’m not entirely sure how to address it. Can you teach yourself to be confident? What if you are not just naturally confident?

I feel like this feeling comes in large tidal waves. I just feel off my surfboard under the power of this massive wave.

This is just a quick post as I try to climb back onto my surfboard, good thing it is attached to my ankle!

 

Until next time…

A Tale of Two Sides

I started my PR certificate! I am already so excited for where this is going to lead! So far we’ve learned about communication plans, Google Analytics, media kits and social media. My inner nerd is shining and I can’t wait to get started on our first two assignments. The class is absolutely wonderful. 18 other amazing people with a diverse array of experiences and awesome stories to tell. I was so wow’ed during our first round of introductions. These people are super impressive and the PR industry is definitely in for a treat! Get ready!

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 Image from dearlifeiloveyou on Instagram
(if you are looking for any source of inspiration, this is the account to follow!)

The¬†experience of the last 4 months has really helped me define what I do and don’t like in the space of my career. Even so early on in the PR program, it is so fascinating to feel these realizations and being confident that, that is completely okay for me to feel. This is a glimpse into what I’ve thought about and learned over the last 4 months:

I LOVE:
-social media (super evident to me in class this week)
-to listen to people’s STORIES
-exploring in all sense of the word
-creating fun & engaging content
-challenges
-projects (I like the feeling of completing one thing and moving to the next)

I’m working on:
-speaking confidently
-creativity
-finding the next skill I want to develop (InDesign anyone?)

I really dislike:
-boredom
-repetitive tasks
-inefficiency
-working remotely as the ONLY option
-not feeling connected to my work

The biggest lesson I’ve learned over the last 4 months is really that I need to be around people. Having the option to work remotely for the odd day or is really great. But I’m not sure I could do it long term. I’m really all about being efficient and find I am so much more so when I am stimulated with surroundings and conversations. It is interesting to see this written down and will be even better to look back upon, a few months into my career.

It is really exciting for me to say “into my career”. I am so excited by the prospects and for all the potential opportunities that lay in front of me. The structure that school has added back to my life was so needed. This kind of played into my realization of being more effective when surrounded by a stimulating environment.

Can’t wait to keep tracking my progress over the next 5-8 weeks!

Until next time…

Personal Growth

I relearned a lesson I noted a few posts back about dedicating my time to things I enjoy doing, again recently.

I have a very good talent for finding projects that do not pay me. Now this has never been a problem, but this year has held several expensive costs, a lot of which came in during the month of April. This might help illustrate my passion for getting involved. and thinking about this, is making me start to realize and acknowledge that. I think I am really starting to value my time and know that I want to use my time in the most efficient and effective way possible.

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Last week I started an unpaid internship. Now, I went into it thinking it would be really exciting to see the action behind the scenes of a fairly well known blog. However, the unpaid nature of it, really quickly put a strain on me with my school tuition being due and an extra special levy on my apartment out of the blue all in the same week. I am so proud of myself for realizing the strain this was going to be putting on me and decided to step back from the position.

I had a weird feeling, and I think this is the first real example I can bring up where I listened to my gut.

This week marks the last week of freedom (read unemployment) before I head back to school to begin my PR certificate. I am really looking forward to having some more structure in my life! I can’t wait to see this next chapter unfold in my life.

In my blog I will do a bit of reflection on what I have learned over the last 4 months.

Until next time…

Changing Mindset

Hello again.

I am so sorry for my inconsistency. I am consciously trying to focus on more consistent blogging!

A few thoughts that have been running through my head recently have been focused on choice. I feel that in this period of transition (between school programs and real life) that I have been under this deep fog or this raincloud that hovers over my head. I have always dealt with this, but it has really been magnified during this period of my life.

My thoughts in the last few days have been on choosing to be happy and productive. I have consciously tried to monitor my feelings as of late and have noticed that sometimes I just do not want to do things. This morning was a particular example when I woke up at 8am (purposely trying to be productive) and was not inclined to do anything work related. By 8:30 though, I was feeling more excited to go to my yoga class. I’m not sure what changed but I think being conscious of monitoring my feelings definitely played a role.

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Now, I wouldn’t say I’m initially afraid of what could go wrong, but I feel like I need to focus on what could go right. Fear doesn’t drives me but rather this cloud that is hanging over me, just limits my motivation and drive. It has taken me a few months, but I hope coming to the realization that if I focus on monitoring and focusing my energy and feelings I will be able to reach for things that I’ve always been told are in front of me.

I’m hoping this little experiment of mine will pan out and help me get out of this ever present fog. Being mindful and importantly okay with the feelings I acknowledge will help me identify what is important to me and hopefully help me find what I want. Mindfulness is a topic that has come up in some of my psychology classes, but I have never really focused on it in my personal life. Hopefully these baby steps will help me be and present myself in a way that I want to be fully.

 

Now for some blog goals: I will consistently blog every Monday.